Saturday, April 12, 2008♥11:54 AM
danny, im not ignoring you. i swear im not. you say that i ignore you when you talked to me. but you are always beside jiayang. how do you expect me to talk to you? i hope that our friendship can be like what it used to be. but all that is in the past. a lot of things have happened. im sure you know too. our friendship will still remain but it wont be as good as what it used to be. we're still friends. but i hope you'll understand why i'll ignore you when you talk to me in school. well, i think it's time to say the truth out. yeah right. i did like him. but it was only as a friend. i didn't like him a boyfriend. but still, i stead with him. you may not know this, but i was just playing with his feelings. i didn't know he was someone like this. who took things very very seriously. i shouldn't have done that. you may think im a bitch or what. i admit. i am a bitch. i didn't want you guys to know about this at all. so when i broke up with him, i pretended to be very upset. crying and everything. but that was only when i was in front of him. i wasn't depressed or what over breaking up with him. to me it was just nothing. but of cos i couldn't let you all know the truth. he didn't matter that much to me. otherwise why do you think i stead with another guy just one month after i broke up with jiayang? you can hate me if you want. i wont blame you. after all, i did lie to all of you. im really very very sorry about it. the only guy i really love was mathew. i didn't even love jiayang at all. it's quite surprising that i can be together with him for 3 months. i also didn't know how i managed to do that. you can choose to believe what i've said or not to believe. it's up to you. and jiayang, im really really very very sorry for playing with your feelings for 3 months. believe it or not, it's up to you. if you really want to take revenge, do so. after all im in the wrong. sorry jiayang, and sorry danny, for everything i've done. im sorry...
aftersolong,imstillmissingyoueveryday.
&I'll smile for you(:
