Monday, July 21, 2008♥8:09 PM
seems like i've lost interest in almost everything i do. what's happening? i dont find the joy in being with my friends anymore. all i want is some time to be alone. somehow, i dont really like hanging out with them anymore. it seems like we're drifting further and further away from each other. at least that's the case for me and mel. she's like spending more time with her classmates everyday. and we dont really talk to each other anymore. i dont know why. but i aways get this feeling that mel doesn't like going out with us anymore. she would much rather hang out with her classmates. well, if that's the case, we cant really do anything also. what else can we do? nothing.
well, enough of that. just what's really happening to me? how can i actually say that i still like mathew? gosh. what's really happening? tio scolded by miss pek just because i put my head on the table. she thought i was sleep. wth lah. sleeping?! please. yes. i admit. i do sleep in her class. but today i was just having a headache. what's the problem with her man? so what if we girls talk back to her? it doesn't mean she has the rights to dislike us right? and, she refuse to teach something cos she dont like that book. wth? where got such things de? it's no wonder that no one wants to listen during her english lesson. i got scolded cos i was trying to do her english homework. wtf lah seriously. next time i wont bother to do anymore.
sigh. just got into a row with my mum when i came back. which resulted in a slap just because i was trying to reason with her. what's her problem lah, seriously? if i can, i would have left home a long time ago. why would i have waited until now? i really want someone to talk to... but everybody seems so busy and everybody has got their own problems also. sigh. guess i can only keep everything bottled up inside myself. there's nothing else i can do. seriously...
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