Sunday, May 23, 2010♥8:37 PM
okay, so went for the GDOP today. GDOP stands for the Global Day Of Prayer, btw. it was kinda like a concert. totally different from the one i went for 3 years back. i kinda like today's one much better (: youths. hahas. well, kind of enjoyed myself, better than listening to an hour of sermon n trying hard to stay awake (:
so, weekends are good, cos i can finally rest after a week, but, i hate weekends cos i cant see dear. 2 whole days lehs. its getting too hard to bear. idk why, but why do i miss him so much?? maybe 2 weeks ago, i couldnt care much, but now, i really cant help it. could it be cause i've totally fallen for him? well, its hard not to fall for him cos he really treats me well. well, it seems like he's totally in love with me. but well, im not him. i wouldnt know how he thinks and how he really feels. hmm, i maybe lying to myself, again, but still, i'd rather believe in a lie than know the truth. thats right. the truth hurts. it really does. i really hope dear wouldnt be like any of the guys in my past. i really hope so.
i keep telling myself, dont trust a guy too much n dont ever ever give all your love to a guy. let the guy love you more. yeaps. i tell myself that. but i never learn from my lessons. and i end up crying when things end badly. yea, you would say, you deserve it. who told you to trust a guy so much and to love him so much? im really scared. very very scared this'd end badly. again. history has repeated itself for 4 times. its enough. it really is. dear, please dont ever break my heart. please. you can break all other promises you made if you want, but please, dont ever break this promise. love you, dear.
its better to love than to not love.
&I'll smile for you(:
