Tuesday, August 3, 2010♥9:14 AM
i hope you're happy now. this is the kind of life you wanna lead, isnt it? having the best of both worlds. as long as you're happy, nothing else matters. it doesnt matter if others are unhappy or anything. thats their problem. as long as you get what you want, the rest can just try to work out themselves. am i right? i think i shall close my heart once again. you can do anything you want. i'll do anything to not get hurt again. all the tears i've shed for you, its enough. you dont know anythinng. i should have never never let my guard down when im with you. all i get in return is unhappiness and hurt and tears. 100% trust? no way. not anymore. the wall that i've built up around me was tore down by you. and i was left unprotected. i've let you in my life, i've tried to understand you. but your actions made things worse. you cant even do the basic things a boyfriend should do. if only i had known this right from the start. i will never never be taken in by all your promises, all your words again. dont blame me for not having enough trust in you. you destroyed the trust i had in you with your own hands. i wasnt the one. you were.
you are unhappy abt me joking abt your friend. but when they make a joke out of me, where were you? joining them to make a joke out of me. and you call this loving me. i never know thats what you call love.
&I'll smile for you(:
